Maybe I need some rehab,
Or maybe just need some sleep.
I've got a sick obsession,
I'm seeing it in my dreams.

I'm looking down every alley,
I'm making those desperate calls.
Im staying up all night hoping,
Hit my head against the walls.

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Why thank you, Kesha. You've summed it up quite well there alrighty.
Yups, indeedy you have.

To be honest, it has come to my attention that there are varying types of metaphoric drugs out there. Each with their own advantages and disadvantages. I mean, you have the ones that just look damn good and are also have very nice effects on those who use them; they are conventionally appealing to metaphoric drug users. Whereas, others make life an amazing, laugh infused, fun filled ride, as well as being rather attractive upon further inspection. It might be the fact that this second class of metaphoric drug seems to actually care for it's user that adds to the appeal. However, the first class of metaphoric drug is very aesthetically appealing, even if it may not appear to hold much concern for those addicted to it, a small acknowledgement to keep the user interested aside.

Or, I could just be mistaken about all of this. What if, unlike real drugs, metaphoric drugs only have one type? Or what if I can only be addicted to one "type" of so called drug? And does that mean that the first type of aforementioned drug is the drug and the second type is the latest placebo?

More confusingly, it could even be the other way round.

Or they could both be placebos, and I'm just in denial about no longer being addicted to the first metaphoric drug that got me hooked in the first place.

It's all just to confusing for my "drug" infused mind to comprehend at this late hour.

Also, it makes me wonder. Does anyone out there even know to what I am referring to by all these metaphoric drugs and placebos?

More to the point; is there even anyone out there who reads this?

Somehow, I highly doubt it.

I'm starting to realise that all those years of D.A.R.E programmes and the constant 'stay off drugs kids' throughout primary and secondary school also largely apply to the metaphoric drugs as well.

Unfortunately, nobody told me that and I'm too far gone in my addiction for any self-help rehab.

I guess it's a good thing then I love the rush using metaphoric drugs gives me. I don't like the cravings though, the wanting more of said "drug", but I guess it's bearable if I still want my fix.

In a completely different note, I would just like to say my heart goes out to all those in Christchurch, NZ. I hope you and your families are getting through the damage the earthquake has caused. You have the whole of New Zealand behind you. Stay positive, things always turn out okay in the end.

And if it's not okay, it's not the end yet.

I guess it is time for me to drift to the land of nod.
Night night all.